Fat Like Me

Have you ever been told you weren’t fat enough? I have. I once dated a guy named Kevin who told me (when I weighed 250 lbs.) that if we were to have a future together, that I’d have to gain some more weight. I struggled w/ this for a couple more dates and then figured what the hell, why not. But then he disappeared. Not disappeared as in literally disappeared, but stopped returning calls & that typical thing that guys do when they are done w/ a girl. This was obviously better for me, seeing as how I’d rather not be w/ a guy more cornered about his sexual attraction to me than my health and well being. Shit, I’m barely 5’4” and I’ve been nothing but in pain since I reached the 200 lb. mark. Sometimes I think about the time I spent with him, and besides the surprise of finding a guy who was turned on by my size, I guess I am still more surprised by my willingness to do what he wanted just to keep him around.