Disappointed, Confused & REALLY SHALLOW

To all of my many millions of readers, I'm sorry I've been MIA, but I can explain! I've met someone. Well, technically we haven't met in person, but have been communicating by email for a few months, and now by phone for the past few weeks. We seem to have hit it off. We kind of "get" eachother - which is a feeling I'm not used to. I had to go out of town for Christmas last week, and we talked for 3 hours or more on the phone most nights. And by night I mean into the far end of the early morning hours. If you knew me in real life, you'd know I like sleep and I value it more than gold cause my life & bouts of insomnia normally allow for very little of it. It's so not like me to sit on the phone, especially when I can be SLEEPING. Anyway, we were introduced through EHarmony, although neither of us are members, and we exchanged photos at the begining. I'm fat, have bad skin and I'm UN-photogenic, and therefore hate having my picture taken, so naturally I sent him photos of me looking my best, and they are all 2-10 yrs old. But I swear I still look the same as the most recent one... when my hair & makeup is done, which is rare. He sent me some pics too, and while I wasn't all, "OMG, he's so hot!" I felt there was potential. Since he's a he, I figured, alright, I assumed, he looked just like his pics, cause he's a he and all and couldn't hide behind hair & makeup in photos like I do. Well, long story short, we are now facebook friends, and by clicking on one of his friend's pages I was able to see some pics of him from a few weeks ago. I don't want to admit this, but I'm going to. I was kind of repulsed. Those pics look like a very different person. He told me at the begining that he didn't have very many pics of himself, and I figured, ok, assumed, that he was un-photogenic like me, but he more or less looked like the pics he sent. I never asked. Maybe I should have asked, but how does one ask THAT? Now I'm stuck w/ the fear that if we meet he'll look like the pics on his friends page instead of looking like the pics he sent me that I wasn't repulsed by. I'm not getting any younger or skinnier, so I feel compelled to keep things going & to meet & hope with hope that I've never had before that in person he looks more like the pics he sent and the other ones were just REALLY BAD PICTURES. I had enough trepidation about meeting & revealing me prior to this development. Now this? This is too much anxiety.